thoughts for tuesday

here are some of the thoughts i have been having lately.

• I feel like all of my friends are moving on without me and having kids. I want kids too! and so i can buy cute clothes and see all the funny things they do :)
• I am absolutely terrified of having kids and change my mind at least 3 times a day whether i think i can handle it or not. 
• At the moment I feel like I am ready. In an hour when my awful headaches kick in and my joint pain i will probably change my mind again. 
• Mac needs to be trained. He jumps on people and barks at cars trying to chase them as we go on walks and it is really annoying. 
• Mac also makes me laugh every day. he has the funniest personality. 
• I am still addicted to reading. I love it. It hurts holding books and finding a comfortable position to read in and yet at the same time it takes my mind off my pain. 
• I see Cisco for maybe an hour a day right now and that is usually after 9 or 10 at night. He is way too busy. 
• I feel like i may never find a job. I also am not trying that hard to look for one. It is exhausting. 
• I want someone to hand me a job. Working part time. a few days a week. in a doctors office or hospital. is that so much to ask?
• I want my house to be clean all the time. We can't seem to master keeping clutter off our flat surfaces. We joke that hurricane Katrina frequently is a visitor at our home. 
• This weather is crazy! Anyone else think all the tsunami's, earthquakes, and tornadoes are a little much considering it is only May?
• It is almost June and we have only had a few sunny summer days! I am sick of the cold. I don't mind the rain but seriously, Mac and i are getting a little stir crazy inside all day!
• I am ready for my headaches to go away and never come back. That is why i didn't certify as a personal trainer. I can't do most exercises without triggering a nasty headache. I should probably figure that out.
• I started going to a chiropractor which i am actually impressed with. And i get a professional massage every 3 weeks. That gets expensive. 
• And i am not contributing any money to our little family. 
• I probably should get a job soon. 
• But not too soon because we leave for our cruise to the Bahama's in 3 weeks!!!Oh That is going to be a nice break.

Those are some of the random thoughts i have been having lately. My honest thoughts. That's all for today!